Thursday, April 25, 2019

Random Thoughts

I have started to blog quite a few times in the past few weeks, and found that my emotions were in a place where it would be healthy to publish. After some pondering, I thought it was time to post some random thoughts. I find myself thinking, "If I don't blog, I'll forget this a year from now." Yes, it's true, I blog more for me than for you. I mean, I'm glad when someone says they read the blog, but years from now I won't think, "I had a gazillion followers" I will think, "I want to remember about...." See, it's for me, you're just an added bonus as a reader. *giggle*

Today I have a ton of random thoughts. I think that's healthy, as we've had A LOT happen in our world that I have thoughts about. Some good, some character-building, but all worth remembering. Even in the hard times, there are lessons to be learned.

We recently had the twenty-year mark anniversary of the Columbine massacre. I remember sitting in my dorm room 20 years ago and watched the coverage. I also remember thinking, "Do I really want to teach?" Of course, I didn't let fear take over, and taught. My heart aches for families that have lost love ones in shootings. I saw the mother of one of the Columbine Shooters do a Ted-Talk about her son who was a shooter. She had no idea! I've watched it several times. It's quite a society today, with shooters in various aspects of our world. My heart breaks for people affected by random acts of violence. Gobs of shootings. Innocent lives lost. Heaven must be full of incredibly special people. I mean, they were taken so fast, I'm sure there's a special place for those innocent people. We'll never know this side of Heaven, but it's nice to think that. *grin*

I am still loving my job. My favorite part is that I don't have homework. Ever. I'm not in this job forever, but it's perfect for this season. I needed something new. I've been deep in thought about it, as it was a year ago I was spending hours online trying to find a job. I remember aching inside because I worked with some AMAZING people at the school I was at. Of course, God knew where I was headed. I now have some AMAZINGLY FUN co-workers. I can't imagine my world without these people in it now. Lunch is the highlight of my day everyday. We laugh often, and it's just fun. My friend Jill was right, there are friends everywhere you go. I would add, you just have to give relationships time to grow. I'm a blessed gal for sure. *grin*

I recently went to a family reunion, a Camp Barnabas reunion. *grin* I was a little nervous with the leadership change, but it still felt like a family reunion. One particular moment that I want to remember was pulling up to camp, and Mike telling me I was staying in the Wellhouse for the weekend. He also warned me not to get used to it. I laughed. Let me tell you, I didn't feel I was sleeping at camp. I felt like I was in a hotel. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind the normal living quarters for the adults, as we are blessed under the dining hall. However, to not have sounds above me during FOB and a shower attached to the room, well it was fun for a weekend! *grin* I also served in an amazing cabin. One particular camper in my cabin is non-verbal and I can't even tell you why we connected. But we did! It was precious! And of course, I was in Ronni's cabin. The whole weekend was tons of fun. Above all, my cabin was incredible and it was one of those cabins that would have been fun for an entire week. I loved it! Each of those young ladies blessed me in their own way. Legit. Of course, it makes me ache for Summer Camp! *grin* It's around the corner. *grin*

So I guess that's all my ramblings for now. I have several other things rambling in my head, but it's time to get ready to crash. Tomorrow is Friday! Woohoo! *grin*


Saturday, March 09, 2019

Jay Update

Several people have inquired as to how Jay is doing. *grin*

I sit here tonight with a huge smile on my face. One week ago I started a gazillion attempts to blog and couldn't. I didn't know what was going to happen to my little buddy, and I couldn't even let my mind go through the various scenarios of what could possibly go wrong. Tonight, I have good news.

After spending a week at the vet due to an inability to pee without difficulty, we have a happy little Jay back! *grin*

Jay came home on Monday and had stitches & staples removed on Wednesday. They sent us home cone-free! *grin*

Okay, they sent us home WITH the cone, but, he doesn't have to wear it all the time! *grin*

I got him home and he was licking the area from the surgery that still needs to heal. Thanks to a dear friend at work giving me suggestions, I am keeping him in the cone when I can't keep an eye on him and while I sleep. Fortunately, he doesn't mind the cone. He had adjusted to life with it, which makes me smile.

At this moment, he's asleep on the couch without the cone on. If he's near me, and I'm watching him, I let him take a break from the cone.

In middle February when all of this started, I didn't know what the adventure was going to bring or what he would need.

I can honestly say, we're both INCREDIBLY happy to be together again. I think I ran the gambit of emotions during it all, but am loving this little guy with an appreciation of his life in a new way.

I know that mathematically I will outlive him. I'm okay with that.

I'm just glad it isn't now. *giggle*


Thanks to all of those who have supported us during this season. Your love has been noticed & felt. Deeply

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

National Love Your Pet Day

I was scrolling through social media this morning and saw that it's National Love Your Pet Day. I chuckled.

I love that we now live in a society where we have a lot of random, small holidays. Meaning, no gifts given, just fun things to celebrate. And, Jay is always worth celebrating! *giggle*

So, I haven't posted this on social media until now because I wasn't sure what was going to happen. I know, you're thinking, that transition doesn't make sense. Hang with me, it will. I promise.

So last week Jay started showing some unusual behaviors. The main one is that I would wake up in the morning and go to the kitchen to let him outside, and there was urine on my kitchen floor. This is very unusual for him, and he was scared to death when I made the connection between liquid and pee. (slippers have been washed a few times) Fortunately, my friend at work suggested I call my vet when I told her about it. Turns out, that saved his life. *grin*

I called the vet and made an appointment for Friday Morning. I honestly expected to be told he has a bladder infection and leave with medication for him. I was wrong.

It was a blizzard outside when we headed to the vet Friday and I carried him inside because they wanted him to have a full bladder. After some discussion and letting him have an examination, the vet gave him back to me and shared the news. Long explanation into one sentence: the vet felt that it could be Cancer due to the exam. I held it together through the conversation, and made an appointment for Monday for his biopsy.

I was on the verge of tears all day Friday. I did cry some after I initially got home, but gosh Jay was pretty content, so I didn't cry all day. *grin* So, I stayed home with him Friday instead of going to work. I will admit, the blizzard also made it easy to stay in.

Over the course of the weekend, he increasingly had to go outdoors. He also didn't take time to find the perfect place to pee. He took two steps outside and would pee right away. He also cuddled with me more than usual. By the end of Sunday I was glad we were headed to the vet on Monday morning at 8am for his biopsy.

Monday felt like the longest day of my life. He had surgery right away, and she said I'd know how he was doing between 12 and 1pm. It was 2pm when she called. I will admit that 1-2pm felt longer than one hour, but it was GOOD NEWS!!!

Turns out he had bladder stones! While I felt badly that he had stones, I was so glad it wasn't Cancer!!! *grin*

The vet called this morning to tell me he's doing well. He had to stay and be monitored because of the extra incision they did due to the stones.

The vet literally said that if it hadn't been caught when it was that he would have died. *gulp*

So, while it's slightly weird to be home without him, it's okay because he's almost ready to come home. Assuming things go well tomorrow I can get him tomorrow after work! Ahhhhhhhh! I can't wait! *grin*

I'm not naive, I know I'll outlive him, but am so glad it's not this week! *grin*

So, on National Love Your Pet Day, Jay is celebrated! I didn't see him today, true, but he's on the mend to come home. *grin*

I didn't post this before now simply because I wanted to see what he had first. I want to say "Thanks" to the few people who supported me throughout the weekend. Once again I've been reminded that I'm single but NOT alone. *grin*


Thursday, February 07, 2019

Weirdest Weather Day to Remember*giggle*

I took an unexpected day off today due to the weirdest weather that I can recall in my life. I realize it may not be, as I don't remember all weather activity from my childhood. *grin*

In the span of yesterday, I went to the office with it lightly raining. I went and taught and returned to the office in a light rain as well. I got to the office and it was cold, but I didn't think much of it. I knew the previous weather pattern was supposed to work it's way out of the area by noon.

When I was sitting at my desk, I had a weather notification of an ice warning.

I was surprised. Clearly, the forecast changed. *giggle*

When it was time to leave, it wasn't doing anything. I figured we weren't in for much more weather. I was wrong. *grin*

By the time I was home, it was cold & wet out, but nothing unusual.

A friend was over and we enjoyed talking through all the world's problems. *giggle* It's our favorite thing to do. *giggle*

I received a text from family stating both my brother and sister in law had a snow/ice day today. I had tentatively prepared my heart for a snow day. Or, a snow morning. If I thought it was a true snow day, I would have stayed up later.

My friend left and I let Jay out. It was sleeting. I told Jay it was time to sleep.

When I climbed in bed we had thunder, lightening, and sleet. I was floored. I was also tired, so I went to sleep.


I woke up today to a sheet of ice outside. My street, driveway, even my back porch has a layer of ice. From what I understand we're going to have another super cold snap. I know on social media people are tired of winter. I get it.

Can I be real and tell you that I love having a true Winter? I saw on Channel 9 that last Winter we had 5 inches of snow, and this winter we have had 24 inches. *giggle* Honestly, I love it. I mean, we truly get all four seasons here and I love it!

I plan on attempting to go to work tomorrow, however I won't be stupid. Most districts in the area have canceled for tomorrow and I won't be teaching tomorrow because that district is out too. *giggle*

I've enjoyed today. I took a nap, baked cookies, and have watched SEVERAL SVU episodes. *giggle*

So, while the weather was all over the map yesterday, life is good.

At this rate, I can't wait to see what's next in the weather. *giggle*

AWESOME...especially when I can do pjs all day! *giggle*

Monday, January 21, 2019

The Skin You're In

I have had a repeated thought over the years but I don't think I've blogged about it and published it. You'd be surprised at how many posts I write that I don't click "publish." I think that's healthy, but not necessarily the norm today. With the invention of Social Media, we tend to share EVERYTHING in our lives. I believe that we don't need to be quite that open. Transparency is healthy, but over-sharing isn't needed. For example, I don't want to see your dinner. I mean, I get it if you LOVE the food, but do we have to post it for the world to see on a nightly basis? That's just my thought, I have been known to "hide" people's feed on my fb wall for that reason. Anyway, back to my main thoughts. *grin*

I am sitting here on MLK Jr. Day watching The View highlight people with black skin who have made a difference in our society. I have recently had an inner struggle with the whole skin color issue. Please hear me out here, don't just close this blog window. *grin*

With my new job, I have entered into more diversity (on my job) than I have ever been in. I'll admit, prior to this job, I didn't think about skin color much.

I am white.

I didn't choose that, I was born that way.

I am also born post-slavery.

I was also blessed to be born in America.

There are so many things in life that we are able to choose, but the skin we're in isn't one of them.

Yet, I think (as a human race) we tend to judge people based on the color of their skin instead of the content of their character. (Where have you heard that before? *grin*) I cannot truly relate to someone in black skin. Since I've taken this new job, I'm learning what prejudices are truly still alive in our country. That makes me sad, but it's a reality.

For example, a few months ago, I went to teach in a high school that wasn't one of my assigned schools in this new gig. A co-worker asked me to sub for her on a day she couldn't be there but she didn't want to cancel it. So, I went and they let me in a back door and I had to make my way to the front office of the school. It was an adventure as it was a long walk. Upon returning to my work, I told my manager (who has black skin) about that and she said that wouldn't happen if it had been her. The school is predominately white, and she's right. They would have directed her to the front door first. My heart broke a little when I heard that, but I agreed with her that would have most likely been the case.

The more I have pondered this, the more I have noticed my world is different, but similar. I recently took paperwork to a high school I will be teaching in, and I went there at 8am. At that time, they had a Before School Program going on for the elementary school in the common area when I first entered the school. The kids ALL stared at my leg. Is that new for me? No, but sometimes I forget about the limp until I'm around new people. That's okay, I'm made the way I'm supposed to be.

The older I get, the more I am learning that we're supposed to be different.

Whether it's skin color, physical disability, or religious belief, we're supposed to be different.

Another thing I've noticed is how many people DON'T like who they are, and don't like something about them. I get not liking something about us to change us. (For example I have a weight loss challenge at the moment) However, I don't hate myself, nor do I wish I was someone else.

My heart aches for people who walk around wanting to change their physical appearance (nose job, for example) because they feel it doesn't meet the standards of those around them. I mean, that REALLY breaks my heart.

We are all made differently on purpose. I taught with a gal years ago who joked everyday that I could go in and sub for her Kindergarten students. I told her that Kindergarteners scare me. *giggle* We need Kindergarten teachers for sure, and we also need people with a heart for people with Special Needs. *grin*

We all NEED to be different.

I'm still working out the whole skin color issue in my mind because I DON'T think people with dark skin are less than me AT ALL. Unfortunately, we live in a society where that isn't always the case. My heart breaks when someone in dark skin is made to feel less than other people.

No one is BETTER than anyone else.


So, I pray that we (as a nation) can respect each other based on the content of a person's character, and not the color of their skin. (Or whatever is is that makes us different) I also pray that you, the reader, can grow to love the skin you're in. There's only one you, and we only get one life this side of Heaven.

Let's make it count. *grin*


Saturday, January 12, 2019

Snowy Day Thoughts *grin*

I'm in pajamas watching the snowfall today. It is beautiful, and I loving seeing the snow fall to the ground. I've filled my social media posts with pictures and decided to write a post prior to the big Chiefs game. *grin* My mind is so full of thoughts, and we'll see where we land. I mean, this is more for me than you. I say that every post, but it's true. *grin*

I am still loving the job. I started at a new school yesterday and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I had been in a couple character-building classes, so it was nice to have one that I KNOW I'll really enjoy. *grin* I even got to drive in the rain & snow on the way to and from. Fortunately nothing was sticking at that point. *grin* I am getting to know different staff members, which has been fun. It's been such a neat experience, as I was so prayerful when I left my old job because I REALLY cared a lot about the people I worked with. Part of the challenge of learning about my new co-workers is the fact we have such small teams, but, it's happening.

Yesterday we had a Red Friday, which was my first time to wear an actual Chiefs shirt. *grin* We had a photo shoot, trivia competition (I didn't do well. Hahaha!), and popcorn. *grin* The photo shoot was a ton of fun! I loved it! *grin* Come on Chiefs! *grin* I mean, just the Kansas City Spirit alone this week (fountains, buildings, and of course, TWP staff photo *grin*) was fun to watch. *grin*

We also had The Gathering on this past Thursday night. I'm a Story Teller, or table leader, this year and am SO VERY THANKFUL to have this opportunity. We had a great lesson, worship, and small group time. My Small Group Table had some incredibly sweet ladies and our conversation was so good! I have missed that (gone in November, and we didn't have it in December) and thoroughly enjoyed getting to know each of the women. *grin* I can't wait for our next meeting on February 7th! *grin*

Jay is asleep beside me. I still find this so sweet. You'd think I would be used to this, but I'm still enormously blessed by this little furry kid daily. *grin* He's a gem. Totally. *grin*

Finally, I want to mention my book. I'll be transparent and say the past few months I wasn't buying great books to read. I was doing the cheap ones, and while good, they didn't grab me. I read The Hate You Give in no time, and HIGHLY recommend it. *grin* Right now I'm reading All Rights Reserved. I HIGHLY recommend this book too! I'll be honest and say these books have made me enjoy reading even more. *grin* I LOVE THAT! Every once in a while a book will do that for me. *grin*

So, I think I'll logout, let Jay out, and get back to my book. *grin*

Go Chiefs AND JAYHAWKS! *grin*

AWESOME. *grin*

Tuesday, January 01, 2019


It's day #1 of 2019.

I have always liked the promise that a new year brings. I've read on social media some quotes that say it's the first page of a new book. Kinda fits my personality doesn't it? *grin* I mean, I love to read, so it feels right. *grin* So, I have been pondering what to write in my first blog for the new year. I spent the past four days at a conference, and one word kept coming to me, "Maybe". *grin* Since then, I've had several other things come to me. I'm hoping some of it is funny, inspiring, and challenging. If not, that's fine. *grin* I blog more for me than for you. *grin*

MAYBE this will be the year kindness takes over our country in unprecedented ways.

MAYBE 2019 will bring people to care about each other instead of judge each other.

MAYBE this will be the year the Chiefs go all the way to the Super Bowl. *grin*

MAYBE this year will be the year the Jayhawks win another March Madness Tournament. *grin* (Can you tell what sport I know more about? *wink*)

MAYBE this will be the year I win a million dollars. *grin*

MAYBE this year there will be a cure for Cancer invented & sold at a reasonable rate.

MAYBE this year God will bring me a best friend with marriage potential. (Hey, it could happen! *giggle*)

MAYBE I will reach my goal in Goodreads of reading 52 books this year.

MAYBE I will be closer to God than ever before. *wink* (Spoiler alert, this will happen. *grin*)

MAYBE I will work my way completely out of debt. (It's always good to have a goal) *grin*

MAYBE this will be the year that people with white skin don't judge people in other colored skin.

MAYBE this year we will cheer each other on in life rather than think negatively about people.

MAYBE the cleaning fairy will show up once a week and dust for me. (Haha!)

MAYBE this will be the year that no one is homeless.

MAYBE this year our president will put kindness ahead of agendas.
(That one is to make you laugh a little. Please don't send negative comments, it was simply to make you smile) *grin*

MAYBE this year my Mom will quit smoking. (Praying for her in this, and YOU CAN TOO!) *grin*

MAYBE this year Ellen will have me on her show. *giggle* Okay, maybe I'll see a taping, I mean, I haven't done anything fabulous yet. *grin*

MAYBE this year I'll declutter my closets. *grin* (I've already started today)

MAYBE this year I'll finally write my bad date book. *giggle*

MAYBE this year I'll visit UPPERROOM Dallas and Bethel Church in Redding, California. *grin*

MAYBE with the start of a new year, more marriages will be saved through prayer.

MAYBE I'll be snowed in one more time before Spring. (Just one day, I like pajama days!) *grin*

MAYBE this will be the best Summer at Camp Barnabas. *grin*

MAYBE 2019 will bring optimism to our nation.

MAYBE 2019 we will treat people in various holding cells for trying to get into our nation with kindness instead of locking them up.

MAYBE 2019 will bring legislation for more gun regulations for civilians.

MAYBE 2019 will not have any mass shootings. (I pray daily over this issue.)

MAYBE 2019 will bring love for young people (and anyone else) who feel suicidal.
(I pray over this one daily too. Emma, you come to my mind A LOT!)

MAYBE 2019 will bring a positive outlook on those who are mentally ill.

MAYBE 2019 will be the best year of our lives.

MAYBE 2019 will have ups and downs but won't knock people down.

MAYBE 2019 will be full of life, laughter, and love. *grin*

I have a friend who LOVES to dream with God, and she's inspiring me to do the same.

I don't know what 2019 has in store for us honestly. What I do know is that we're blessed to get to be here during this time in history. I will continue to give my best in all areas of my life and enjoy the ride.

After all, we only get one life this side of Heaven, and we need to enjoy it!

GOOD! *grin*