A Fresh Perspective...

So, today I have a perspective that I did not have one week ago today. One week ago I went through the hardest night of my life while I prepared for a Colonoscopy. I had never had this procedure before, and the preparation was harder than the actual procedure. I had vomiting, diarrhea, and a headache. I had a migraine by the time the night was over. I went into the whole deal, wondering if the word "Cancer" would be spoken over my life.

I've watched several of my loved ones walk through C and it's effects and to be honest, I didn't want to walk down that road.

So, they did the procedure last Friday and afterward the doctor said, "It might be Crohn's Disease". I had no idea what that meant, but it honestly excited me that it wasn't C.

So I did my research, and I came to the realization that Crohn's can be managed through meds and a few dietary changes. Above all else, what I read said that the effects are different for each person. So, I wasn't very worried about today's doctor's appointment. Today was the day. The official day I found out what I will have to deal with for the rest of my life.

Today the doctor said it was the beginning stages of Crohn's. He also said I have ulcers in my Small Intestine. So, now I begin my medication that I will take with each meal.

And I'm okay with it.

I know there are challenges to come. For example, I am encouraged to stop drinking milk. I like milk, and drink it every morning. I can drink it, I haven't been forbidden to drink it, but he said it will make my symptoms worse. Hum...

He also said I am to give up Ibuprofen, and only take Tylenol for pain. I have migraines and Ibuprofen has helped them considerably. So, he said if Tylenol won't work, to let him know and he'll prescribe different pain meds. I have headaches, so I'll be interested to see how that will work.

And, perhaps the most challenging thing at the moment for me will be adding medications to each meal. I sometimes forget stuff like that, so it will take a conscious effort for me to take my medications regularly as prescribed by the doctor.

All this being said, I'm okay with it.

One week ago I thought it would be something much, much worse.

And in the past week, I've had a new perspective put within me that is hard to articulate into words. All the sudden, fighting over little stuff or getting upset over the little stuff is stupid.

Life is short.

Too short in some ways, and too long in other ways.

But, for today, I'll take it.

By the way, ToolDude came and took me to my appointment and then we went out for lunch. Those 3 hours were the best three hours I've had in a LONG time.

I am loved very well.

Thank God.