Sunday, March 29, 2009

Friends

In light of all I've been through this month, I am finding myself evaluating my friendships. Earlier this month I had a friend tell me that she no longer desired a friendship with me. I found myself sobbing at the front of my school building on a bench, (noone was around, thank God!) telling God I didn't understand. I had given to the point of sacrifice in that friendship, and it ended with her saying she didn't want to be my friend anymore. I am still processing that, obviously.

So, I want to say that today God showed me a lot regarding friendships.

I started the day at church on the Worship Team. Over the past several weeks I have found myself drawing closer to the members of the band. Our worship team leader stepped down and two new ones have taken over, and we have LAUGHED a lot as a team lately. I tell ya what, practice was fun, followed by an AWESOME time of worship this morning. I will even say it was the most intense worship set that we've had since I've been on the team. It was fun. And at one point, one of the worship leaders turned to me and smiled in the midst of the set. It made the experience even better! It was AWESOME!

Before worship team, M.L. walked up to me and asked me if I'd be willing to be a a special friend to her for this season of her life. She asked me to spend one evening a week just encouraging her and helping her see God's plan for her life. I was blessed. I remember telling God that I was blessed that he would choose me to speak into her life. So tonight I went over to her place and we had a ball! We have SO MUCH in common, and prayed together before I left. I tell ya what, I told God on the way home that I realized how blessed I am. M.L. is a wonderful gal, and I am excited about what God has in store for us as friends. It is a healthy friendship that made me smile.

So, while one person on this planet doesn't want to be my friend, there are SO MANY others that see good in me and do want to be my friend. And, while I process the last chapter of my life, and enter into this one, I know that I am loved very well.

Blessed.

Later.

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