Blessed

Today I got up and went to church. I know, you're all shocked to hear that! :-) Just kidding. As I was sitting in church, I got to thinking...

I find that this move is becoming more and more real to me with the passing of each day. I know, you're all thinking, "You've known this was coming." While that is true, now that I'm starting to say "Good-bye" to people, it's becoming more and more real..and difficult.

I remember when I was in the 7th grade we moved from Texas up to Kansas, and I had my first round of true insomnia in my life. In the months before we moved, I was so nervous about leaving my good friends, I would lay awake at night and think, "Okay, if I fall asleep now I would only get ____ hours of sleep." Looking back, there were some long nights but I am pretty sure I did eventually fall sleep each night. And even though I knew the move was going to happen, it wasn't until the actual day came and I remember standing outside the house as my parents wound up selling the deck furniture to the new owners of the house and thinking, "This really is real." (Isn't it interesting what details we remember from our childhoods?) I am beginning to feel that same thing.

While I have moved MANY times since I living with the parental unit, this move is the biggest in my opinion because it's the longest I have lived anywhere in my adult life. So, I was sitting at church today thinking stuff like, "Two weeks from today is my last day on the worship team here...last day to teach here..." It was getting a bit saddening in a sense... Then I went to our leadership meeting.

At the end of the leadership meeting they gathered around me to pray for me, blessing me to move on to other things. And, as usual, the Lord spoke to me in what they said to me. I came home and wrote everything down, and felt better than I had while I was sitting in church. I was reminded that even though I'm nervous, an even bigger part of me is excited...nervousness is normal. And, I have never left one place and entered something worse...God has ALWAYS led me somewhere even better than where I was in the last place. So I know that where I'm going will be even better than where I am now, and honestly I am happy now at both church and school. And, I know that in about 6 months, I'll be saying, "God, you've given me SO MUCH more than I prayed for." As Karen said today, He already has, so what's to come is going to be even bigger and better...

Life.
Is.
Good.