It began with Mr. P following me to my room this morning. He gave me the same chat as he did yesterday, just using a rational voice instead of yelling. I simply replied, "ok". I thought long and hard last night (and at 5am this am, funny how stress lowers your sleep at times) and I can't lose my job by talking back to this guy. Yes, there were words I wanted to say, but I didn't. I have roommates who depend upon me for bills, and I just can't lose my job. Of course, that was never brought up, but Mr. P. has been known to blackball people in our district, and I don't want to wind up on his "list". While he didn't apologize for yesterday, he did say he didn't mean to upset me like he did. I took that as the closest thing I'm gonna get to an apology, and decided to let it go. Life is too short to hold a grudge.
I pulled kids and taught my first group, and Jake joked with me. It is clear that what I did yesterday wasn't something he held against me. I was glad, I really like Jake. That was cool.
Then I spoke in front of our whole school on perseverance. I only talked for about 5 minutes about my CP and limp, but I seemed to get my point about not giving up across, as I received kind words afterward about it. I tend to think God knew I needed that, as yesterday had me feeling sad in a way I hadn't felt in years. It was one of those days where people say stuff to you that means a lot but you never realize how they feel about ya. Yeah, really cool.
You wanna know the most ironic part of it all? At the assembly, guess who I sat by on stage? Yep, Mr. P. It was encouraging because we were laughing and joking as if nothing happened yesterday. Life is funny sometimes, you go through stuff, not sure what the outcome of it all is gonna be, and ultimately, it's okay. Kinda cool, if you ask me.
So, now my couch is calling my name.
Hang in there, my friends. As our students chanted this morning, "Do your best, and never, ever give up." Works for me!
1 comment:
very glad your speech went well, and you got what you needed when you needed it. God has a funny way of fixing that up for people, huh?
and thanks, because i needed a post like this. it's been a long week with punky girl and everything.
it also helps that as of friday, i have 10 days off...yes, it's the beginning of spring break.
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