Deep Down Inside...

I was re-reading my past blog posts and decided to see what I could come up this time around on my "Deep Down Inside" thoughts. My last one was pretty deep, but it was quite a while back, and I am anxious to see what this looks like when I'm done... Old post is at: http://perspectives-on-life.blogspot.com/2007/10/deep-down-inside.html)

...I feel myself returning to an old version of me...a happier version than I've had in years...it's nice to hear myself laughing deeply again...
...I am happy about moving and nervous all at the same time...
...I miss my former roommate from time to time and then I wonder why...
...I wonder if I'll actually hang out at the lake when I move or just look at it from a distance...
...I think about my B.D. student this Summer and wish I could take him with me to KC, but then I'd be in jail, so I won't...but I wish I could...
...I wonder how expensive life is going to be up North, and PRAY that I have enough stashed away to do this without a loan from the Parental Unit...
...I am looking forward to meeting Indy, the family's newest member, next weekend!!!
...I am wondering what my future dog looks like...
...I am REALLY looking forward to Camp again this year...it's always the best week of the Summer!
...I wish people could consider my limp normal, instead of abnormal...
...there are days I wish I could have one day where NOONE would stare at my leg...
...I miss Laura...I am happy she's ministering at Camp, and I can't wait to see her at camp, but I sure miss her...
...I am glad that I will be able to go to IHOP-KC everyday...don't know if I will go everyday, but I like the idea that I CAN if I WANT...
...I am blessed to have Karen as a mentor...I am closer to God because of her...
...I wonder why I enjoy Facebook so much, but then find comfort in the fact I can stay in touch with friends via Facebook when I move...
...I thought my sprained ankle would be healed by now, and it's not, so I walk more goofy than usual, and honestly feel God building my character in the process...and it's DEFINITELY NOT KNOCKING ME DOWN! :-)
...I am thankful for SingingGal and her family...they have no idea how they have blessed me in recent months, just by being themselves...and I'm in denial of the fact I won't be 15 minutes away from them in a few weeks...
...I am waiting for the person God has for me...waiting...waiting...waiting...
...I am praying that my new co-workers are as cool as my fourth grade teachers are here...
...I am going to miss Jay, the autistic kid I've tutored for years, more than he knows...
...I said good-bye to one of my students yesterday and fought tears for the first time in all this moving stuff...
...I want to be the best encourager on the planet!
...I want to inspire kids to be more than they think they can be...
...I am holding onto Hebrews 11:1 and Zephaniah 3:17 in ways you don't even know, will never know and aren't supposed to know...
...I believe there's good in all my students, some days it's just harder to see than others...
...I know there are people who have judged me for the last chapter of my life in a negative way, but I know that I did my best and that's all I could do...
...I wonder what my life will look like ten years from now...
...I can't wait to see the Bowen Hall gang next weekend...where did ten years go again?
...I am convinced that I have the best family on the planet...we're not perfect, but we're a kind group of people...
...I learned kindness from my Mom and Dad...Mom is the most selfless gal I know, and Dad will hear me say, "That's cool" when I see something I like and remember it at a holiday and give it to me when I had forgotten what I had said earlier...
...I miss D.D. already, and I'm not even gone...
...Scienceguy is my hero...
...my students here have blessed me in ways they don't even realize...
..."Not so much" will always remind me of my tall friend, and make me smile...
...I'm gonna miss saying, "Good Morning Mr. H." as I enter the building and hearing the standard grunt response from him...
...BarnabasGirl is someone I think about and pray for everyday...
...I wonder how friendships can shift and end when two friends were so close once upon a time...
...I feel blessed that God has given the ability to walk...since my ankle sprain, I have realized how much I take walking without pain for granted...
...there are some days I feel more proud of myself than others...and remember God loves me anyway...
...I wonder how I lived for 5 years without cable...seriously...
...every time I hear "crazy" or "seriously" I will think of SingingGal and smile...
...I wish I could love God as much as He loves me...
...I miss Tooldude...
...I think perspective is the key to a happy life...
...I wonder if I should enjoy tv shows with hostage situations as much as I do...
...I love to make others smile and laugh...that's one of my many goals in life...
...I love to bless others...
...I love it when a kid learns something hard, and says, "I did it!"...
...I hate the word "can't"...it should be erased from the dictionary...it's not allowed in my classroom...EVER...
...I love to love...that's what life is all about...
...at the end of my life I hope people think of me and the words Kind and Loving together...

Life.
Is.
Good.