2020 Adventures

What a year it has been. 

It feels like it's been a lifetime since January in so many different ways. 

I have had highs, lows, and everything in between this year. 

A pandemic is not for the faint at heart, that's for sure. I have not had the CaronaVirus. (Unless I was asymptomatic and just didn't know.) As of today we've lost over 220,000 Americans to the virus. We'll lose more too, unfortunately. I could do a whole post on this topic, but I don't want to do that. 

I continue to pray for all of those affected and on the front lines. This is a year we won't forget for sure. *grin* 

So, I noticed my last post was in May. That seems like a lifetime ago too. The Chiefs won the Super Bowl this year too?  That was sooo long ago too. *giggle*

In March I started job searching. I know, job searching in a pandemic seems crazy, doesn't it? Well, it's 2020 so anything can happen, right? *giggle* After interviewing with several districts over the Summer for a teaching gig in the fall, nothing panned out. I was actually okay with that. I mean, I liked my job at The Whole Person. The Pandemic created a friendship with three coworkers that occurred daily at lunch. Yes, via zoom and then in person when possible. I also enjoyed the groups I led, so that was special to me too. I was happy. 

My financial life was getting to me though. I missed the income the teacher gig gave me. I remember praying one night in September that I needed more money. 

Then my phone rang that next morning while I was at work from a school district. I'll be honest, I didn't expect it to pan out. My heart had been broken by the districts I had hoped to work for and then they just didn't pan out. I had already told God I was okay doing one more year at TWP. Then He opened a door. *grin*

After three interviews, I got the job!!! Insert happy dance here. *giggle* I accepted a Special Education Resource position at a district in Kansas. *grin*

The afternoon I accepted the job I had all the feels. I was so excited about my new adventure, but I'm so relational that the idea of leaving the TWP family made me sad. Then I remembered that many other friends had moved on from TWP but we were still in touch. (Chiefs games mean text chats, and so does THIS IS US!) I let myself feel the feels but I didn't stay there. 

I was legitimately pumped about the new job. It meant fewer miles on my car, less gas, less time on the road, more money, better work hours, and I don't time in and out. (That last one is minor, but gosh it has made me smile daily.) 

I was SOOOO nervous. If I hadn't been, that would have been weird, right? *grin* I've been working in my new school 13 days and I can honestly say I LOVE IT! I do think the two years away from teaching was a gift. I also think doing something different was key. I'll openly admit, I miss my old school, but I know I'm where I'm supposed to be. *grin* 

Now, I won't say it's been easy. We're still in a pandemic, and school had already started. I knew on day 1 that I was already behind since I didn't get to set up my room or lesson plan like usual. Upon arrival, half of my day was online teaching and half in person. Let me tell you, this has not been easy. 

All students are due back Monday and I'm so excited! I'm sure you're wondering, so I'll share that we are extremely safe at school. We wear masks all day, distance when we can, and spray cleaner every time students leave. We also stay pretty much in our own teams, and even our staff meeting was virtual. The district is doing a good job at keeping us all safe. 

At the same time, we're nervous that we'll have to quarantine with so many humans in the building. I am already praying about that though. I'm not nervous I'll get it, but I am nervous that we'll have to quarantine. I just keep reminding myself that God has us. *grin*

2020 has been an adventure for sure. I am walking Jay daily, coloring regularly to relieve stress, zooming with my family weekly, and am happy. Perhaps I'll do other posts about the amazing people that have gone on to Heaven this year, or the weight of a pandemic, political battles, a year without Barnabas family, well, the list of posts could go on and on.

Or maybe not. 

EVEN IN 2020 LIFE IS GOOD. 

I'm smiling more, laughing more. and loving the people God has surrounded me with for this season. Life is short. Life is good. *grin*

Pandemic Thoughts While Walking Jay

Since the weather started getting warmer in March, Jay and I walk almost everyday. I have learned to LOVE walks. I didn't hate them before, but I didn't enjoy them either. (Am I alone in that? Doubt it!) Yes, part of it is due to the Pandemic. Indoors for too long isn't good for the body. *grin*

So, we have a typical route we take, but it can vary depending upon how much time we have and if I need to be back here for a zoom meeting. I've enjoyed the apartment life so much more than I ever expected. I love my neighbors, who are super kind. I also like that we have A LOT of apartments here so we have miles of sidewalks to choose from. We're also surrounded by a nice neighborhood so we sometimes walk the neighborhood too. I let Jay choose the route most of the time, which he loves.

So tonight we started out on our usual route, and I noticed we STILL have a trash problem. Yes, let me explain. The past few days our dumpsters have been filling up to the point that the area outside the dumpsters are full too. I should also mention we have A LOT of units here. Just in my area alone are about 80 apartments. So, as you can imagine, that's A LOT of trash. I actually need to take some to the dumpster but am waiting because there's not any space out there. We even had an email from the main office yesterday stating that they were going to come to take the trash today, but they didn't. Yes, so that means when we walked around 5:00 there was a lot of trash out for the whole world to see. Yeah, so it got me to thinking.

A lot of people have said that 2020 is a dumpster fire due to the Pandemic. I understand why they say that, I mean, we've lost 80,000 lives to the CoronaVirus since March, and the list can definitely go on from there. However, there has been good out of it too. As usual, I think it comes down to what perspective you take on the situation.

I love how ABC Nightly News regularly shows positive stories out of this challenging season. We've seen Birthday Parades, people applauding health care workers, singing nightly in some neighborhoods around the country, and loved ones visiting their elderly family through the window (closed, of course) to celebrate birthdays. I could go on and on, but needless to say I have been pleasantly surprised at the amount of good I've seen in the midst of the challenge.

A week ago social media exploded with conspiracy theories around this whole thing. I have to admit I sat here and pondered the whole thing. I mean, this is new territory for all of us. I also realize there's still A LOT that we don't know about the virus, and what we do know seems to change almost daily.

I've been working from home since March 24th. It hasn't all been easy, but it has been worth it. I initially wanted to work from home so that I wouldn't get the virus. I think through the past 8 weeks I've discovered that even if I were to get it, I would probably recover and life would go on. However, something hit me HARD the other night.

A friend of mine made a comment on zoom that made me stop and think. She said we're not wearing masks to keep from getting it, we're wearing masks to protect those around us. I knew that on one level, but then something hit me. Since we don't know (as of today) who has it and who doesn't (I'll refrain from my whole thought process about testing in America, you're welcome!) and you can be asymptomatic and never know you had it, you can pass it and never even know it. Just the idea that my sneeze or cough can affect someone to the point of death, well, makes me more cautious. I don't want to find out how well I would handle it if I caused someone else to lose their life due to my actions. That's a perspective I didn't have before. For real.

So you may be wondering where I'm going with all of this. Here's the thing, the overflowing trash will be picked up eventually. It won't be fast enough for those of us living here, but it will happen. Then having the trash company come three times a week like they were before will be taken for granted again. I think the same will be true of the CoronaVirus.

With places opening up, social distancing being the norm, cleaning areas will be cleaner than ever before, and hand sanitizer will be carried everywhere we go. All of those are good things. And honestly, hand washing and cleaning frequently used areas should have been the norm before all of this. Was it? I doubt it. We're learning though...

It may be a while before sports teams start playing in front of crowds and concerts can be held again, and that's okay too. My brother made a comment at one point that has also stuck with me, "one life lost is too many." He's right.

So yes, now I'll take my lawn chair and sit outdoors with friends from a safe distance in order to visit. I'll also carry my own beverage and hand sanitizer too. I'll also wear my mask when shopping, even though I hate wearing it, to protect everyone around me.

Years from now we'll know things we don't know today. It might look silly that I worked from home for 8 weeks. It also may seem silly that Camp Barnabas was closed during the Summer of 2020. It might even seem silly that graduations weren't held on their original dates. All of those things are the right things to do at this point though, because we are still learning about the Virus and don't have a vaccine.

One thing's for sure, I will NEVER take for granted a smile from a stranger, a hug from a friend or student, or being able to hang out without a distance. That's okay too.

I think God gives us chapters in our lives to make us better, stronger, and closer to Him. Eight weeks in this apartment, and I can say I am closer to him than I was on March 23rd. I also think the lessons gained will last my lifetime. *grin* God's got this, my friends, we just need to have some more patience & compassion for each other. *grin* I mean, the trash will be picked up soon, and we won't be in this pandemic forever. *grin*

Life.
is.
Good.
Even in a pandemic. *grin*

THANKFUL

I lost count of how many days we've had the Stay-at-Home order, and I think it's better that way. I see a proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. That's comforting and a little scary all at the same time. However, I am thankful for some things during this season.

If I had known twenty years ago that we were going to have a pandemic, I wouldn't have believed it. As I sit here in my apartment, I am thankful for technology in a whole new way.

I haven't hugged a human since this whole thing started. I haven't hung out with friends or family in a physical sense either. The weirdest part, I have moments of stress, but overall I'm doing pretty well. *grin* I'm doing well (in part) due to the technology available now.

I'm thankful for Netflix & Prime streaming services, as I'm currently binge watching show #2 of the day. Does it replace people? Gosh no, but to get through this season, it's been a gift. *grin* Favorite shows this Pandemic Season (to remember years from now): Northern Rescue, Dead to Me, and Upload. SO VERY THANKFUL for these shows since sports are nonexistent right now. *grin*

I could almost title this season, ZOOM. I meet with my family on Sunday afternoons on zoom. It has brought us all closer together during a time we can't be together. I look forward to it each week as we all process this once-in-a-lifetime situation. Our experiences are similar, but not the same. My book club also meets via zoom. I look forward to seeing everyone in person again, but, for now zoom makes this a little bit better.

And quite possibly the most unexpected gift out of this season is my zoom lunches with friends from work. It is the highlight of our days during a time when we're to be physically distant from each other. We have four of us who regularly meet, we're the Fantastic Four, although anyone is welcome. *grin* We plan to continue them even when we return to work, as we are still physically distancing to keep everyone safe. We even had a celebration for a co-worker who recently went to Heaven. It was really special. We may be physically apart, but we're close in the daily stuff. I'm blessed by that. TOTALLY.

I am praying OFTEN for healthy outcomes to this situation. Selfishly, I pray we don't have another round in the fall. But if we do, at least I know what technology can do to make this experience a little better. God made us to be with people, so, I also know I'll be thankful to be able to hug another person too. *giggle*

For tonight though, I'm thankful for technology to carry me through this Pandemic.

*grin*
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD!

Margaret, Rest in Peace

Today my work family received word that one of our coworkers went to Heaven on Wednesday. Margaret Crow was in charge of transportation when I started at The Whole Person (TWP) in July 2018. I first met her during Orientation and she explained the procedures for taking our fleet cars. From the moment I met her, I knew she was special.

I had a few really special moments with her that will stick with me the rest of my life. Margaret drove us to Jeff City last year for Disability Rights Day. I'll never forget her coming in and sitting down by me after the event. It was the first time I had really talked to her. Her heart came through as we talked through some tough things, and I saw her (proverbial) heart. She was transparent in the chat and we both teared up. Then, someone needed her and she was gone to help someone with something. That was her heart for all of us, she wanted to help in ANY way she could. I also never saw her in a bad mood. Ever.

I'll never forget the first time I took the mod van and had someone that had to be buckled in right then. No one had trained me on it. Margaret was walking by and hopped on the van and taught me how to safely get the intern attached to the van. She didn't have to do that, she did it because she wanted to help. That will forever stick with me because she WANTED to do that. *grin*

Finally, the last time I saw her was in her house after her diagnosis. I hate Cancer. Hate, hate, hate it. I adored Margaret though. She sat on her love seat, and had just recently quit her job at TWP due to her diagnosis of Cancer throughout her body. She invited me to sit down and I learned a little bit more about her. I learned she loved art, and had some really cool art tools. I learned how much she loved Chiefs football & I'm so very glad that her last Chiefs season was the one where we won the Super Bowl. We texted more than once through the Chiefs most recent season which was cool.

As she sat there, she said words I'll never forget, "It's a new season, I'm getting used to it." That was Margaret. She didn't complain, she simply looked for the good in each situation I witnessed her in. Even when she would have had reason to complain, she didn't when I was around. She would always smile and make a comment about how fortunate she was in any situation. She inspired me several times in the short time I knew her.

Margaret, you won't be forgotten. I saw TONS of messages about you today, and A LOT of your friends can't believe you're gone. The silver lining in this is the fact you and Mo are back together again. That makes us smile. So many of us on this side of Heaven will miss you, but we'll also remember that you aren't in pain anymore. You loved people well on this side, and we are all better people for having you in our lives. You'll always hold a special place in my heart. ALWAYS. *grin* Rest in Peace, my friend. With Love, Shannon

Pandemic Highlights

Here we are again, another day of stay-at-home order. While there certainly challenges along the way, I want to post tonight about some highlights in the midst of it all. None of these are huge, but, they're things I want to remember on the other side of this experience.

I've re-discovered FaceTime. Ohmygosh, WHAT A GIFT! I have been using it to talk to friends, and it has been a true highlight for me. I used to just text, but talking to other humans and seeing their faces makes me smile. It's a true gift for me. I recently reconnected with a few people, and gosh it's fun to catch up! *grin*

I've also started walking long distances again. Not today, due to rain, but every chance I get after work, we walk.(The furry kid and I) I've lost a little weight, which is nice too, but to be outdoors and moving is helping me clear my head and stay positive. It's not supposed to rain tomorrow. THANK GOODNESS!

I heard today that music helps reduce stress. I play music all day while I work. (unless on a zoom call) I am so glad I'm alive in a time when music is a so available for me to obtain. I love how I can see on Instagram or FB that a favorite band has released a new song (Cory Asbury!!!) and I can immediately download it. (Also glad I'm alive to experience Apple Music) Music is definitely something that has helped me more than words can say. *grin*

I'm also thankful for Social Media. I can follow what's up with my friends without interfering with their lives. I'm so very proud of the Missionaries I've had in my cabins over the years and love being able to see them getting married, having kids, etc. So very proud of all of them. *grin*

Finally, I'm reminded of how good people can be on a daily basis. I have people text me daily to check in on me, and make sure I'm doing okay in a time when staying at home is required of everyone. I think a common thought for people is, "It would be hard to be single right now." Meanwhile, I'm like, "I don't have anyone to bug me, I'm good." *giggle* At the same time, it's neat to know that people care enough to send a text, card, or call to make sure I'm doing well in this situation. Just knowing that makes me smile. *grin*

LIFE.
IS.
GOOD.

Pandemic Thoughts

Here we are, in the midst of the first pandemic I've had in my lifetime. I hope it's the only one, but only God knows what life will look like beyond this season. I decided to take a few minutes this morning and post a few thoughts, as I can start work later this morning due to a group I lead tonight via Zoom. *grin*

CoronaVirus, or COVID-19, has hit the world in a BIG way. Today there are A LOT of unknowns, even though we're a month into this being "breaking" news. Things we don't know yet include: can you get it twice or after you have it once are you immune? When are you contagious if you have it? It is believed that you are contagious before you see symptoms, which is why this has caused such a drastic change in our lives. We have also had people test positive when they never had the typical symptoms, which include fever, body aches, and respiratory challenges. So many unknowns, and I pray daily that we will start to have some answers. The unknowns make this incredibly challenging.

So I've been deep in thought every day since this whole thing started. Today, 4.14.2020 we don't know when our stay at home order will be lifted. For me, the most challenging piece of all of this is not knowing when we can se a light at the end of the tunnel. The current stay at home order was set to expire on 4.24.2020. Yesterday on the six o'clock news, they said it may be extended one to three more weeks. My stomach dropped when I saw that. Part of me can't wait for the order to be lifted, and another part thinks the anxiety that I now have when I go to the store will still be high for a while. My prayer life continues to be deep, as I am not sure how I would have handled this otherwise. So, here are some thoughts I'd like to keep in mind in the future because this will end and I won't remember the depths of this experience like I do today. It's kind of like college, at that point in my life I thought my time in college was taking forever, but looking back, it was a FAST season. *grin*

Gasoline is at a low in the KC Metro. According to gas buddy this morning, gas at a nearby QT is $1.59 a gallon. I find it interesting that during a season when I'm commuting to work, I'm in a stay at home order and haven't filled up the tank in three weeks. I mean, I only leave to go to the store or to take Jay and I for a car ride. *grin* Ah the irony... *giggle*

I have lost 9 pounds in the past 3 months. I think it can be attributed to the fact Jay and I walk daily now. We were doing that occasionally at the townhome, but I think I was honestly in a little bit of depression and just didn't walk and I emotionally ate. I am now eating less (portion control) and walking more. And while 9 pounds isn't huge, I do feel better and my legs are stronger. I want to remember this for future seasons. I'll admit, the weather has helped a great deal! Well, until yesterday when we're back in cooler temps. We walked anyway though. I mean, I don't want to gain back what I've lost. We walk 1.5 to 2 miles per day now. I'm hoping to increase it to three, but Jay is done at 2 miles now. *giggle* I'm not kidding. Around the 1.5 mile mark he doesn't do his pokey "sniff everything" routine and books it home. *giggle* Building Endurance isn't just for humans apparently.

There have been some beautiful things out of this experience, and I hope that won't be lost when our new normal begins. For example, people are helping people in new ways. Companies are donating things to front line workers, and nurses and doctors are literally dying to save other people's lives. Grocery store employees are now essential to our society when beforehand they were viewed just as minimum wage employees. I sure hope they all get huge bonuses out of this experience. According to the news, grocery store employees have died due to the CaronaVirus too. Apparently minimum wage earners are now heroes in our society, along with people in the medical field. Thank you, heroes. May you be blessed over and over again for the work you're doing now.

There are several things I took for granted prior to the CoronaVirus. One of the things I took for granted was sports. I LOVE college hoops, Royals baseball (when I'm at the stadium), KC Soccer, and Chiefs football. There are not any sports being played now due to the virus. On Saturday, there was a rerun of an NBA game, which I don't typically watch, and I LOVED IT. Sports and music are two things that bring humans together, and we're in a dry season and the sports players are now on the sidelines while the grocery workers & nurses are now on the front lines. I imagine sports players are getting some new perspectives on life too.

Right before the Virus changed our world, I saw TobyMac in concert at the Sprint Center and it was FANTASTIC! I love music. I mean, I LOVE music. I sit here with music going now (THANKS Air1!) and had three more concerts lined up for this Spring. Now they're on hold. I will never again take it for granted when I'm in a huge group of people and don't need to wear a mask. There will be a day when concerts are the norm again, but for now, this is one of the hardest things for me. At the same time, artists are still releasing music on various platforms (THANKS CORY ASBURY!) which is a breath of fresh air for me in this season. *grin*

I'm thankful for technology on some deep levels. I haven't had a physical hug from another human in who knows how long but the website zoom does A LOT for my emotions right now. Getting to see family (we zoom once a week) and coworkers (I hold a daily zoom lunch for anyone who wants to join) makes me smile and I look forward to that time everyday. I'm not hating this season, I'm simply trying to find the proper perspective through it all. *grin* Zoom is a fantastic tool right now. I'm thankful we have it today. If this had happened twenty years ago, I'm not sure how I would have handled it. Today though, Zoom gives me interaction with the outside world without concern for the Virus. I'll take it. *grin*

Movie theaters are shut down now, for the first time in my life. Going to the movies, having movie theatre popcorn, and sitting in recliners with someone beside me is one of my favorite things in this life. Right now that's on hold too. While that saddens me a little, I'm thankful for Netflix, Amazon Prime, and Disney+. Streaming services make filling time more enjoyable when you're told to stay at home. For real. *grin*

Two Words, Tiger King. Who would have thought that show would be such a hit? It's a train wreck, but if you're stuck at home you wanna see what crazy thing will happen next. Honestly, I don't know it would have been such a hit if people weren't required to be at home right now. Joe Exotic finally got his dose of fame, but he can't enjoy it like you would think. (Don't wanna ruin it for people still watching)

Right now you can't go out to eat. You can order food for delivery, carry out, or drive thru. Yeah, McDonald's employees are also deemed "essential" now. I haven't ordered a pizza in this whole thing. I am eating frozen pizza because I'll be the only one to touch it. I'm probably being overly cautious but it is what it is. I started to order a pizza last night and just couldn't do it. God and I will have some serious time together when this is over and I want to eat out again. I'm actually praying that scientists can figure this out and we can go back to a normal close to what we had before. A friend told me recently that this experience will change us in some unknown ways. I agree with that, but I don't want fear to become my best friend again. So, I'm praying over that these days too. *grin*

I remember telling God before we even knew about the virus, how I felt like I was never at home as much as I wanted to be. Yes, I seriously made that statement. Then a new virus hit our world and I'm now working at home. I will admit, I like it but not for the reasons you might think. I do miss seeing people daily in person, BUT I love the commute and the extra time it's given me at home. Jay and I now walk right after I'm done working for the day, which is forty five minutes earlier. I also enjoy sleeping a smidge later because I don't have to drive anywhere. I also like that I'm sitting here in my wind pants because all anyone will see today is the hoodie I'm wearing and my face. Yes, there are some advantages to this CoronaVirus right now. *grin*

There are some things I hope we don't lose when this is over and we have our new normal back and we're not ordered to stay at home. The main one is that I hope people continue to get out and walk. There are more and more people walking each day, which is so good. Although I do look forward to being able to stop and chat from time to time instead of just staying six feet apart. I mean, I'm being real here. *grin*

Along with sports and concerts being put on hold, Camp Barnabas (and other camps from what I've been told) has canceled Summer 2020 Events. My heart sank when I read the email that came out. I expected it, as everything else is canceled. At the same time, for A LOT of us who attend camp, that's our time to feel "normal" in a world where we are not considered normal the rest of the year. Sure, I'm a volunteer, not a camper, but it really is a piece of Heaven here on Earth. At the same time, we're not any closer to knowing the unknowns yet, it was the right decision. My heart breaks for the families of the campers, as well as the campers who live for their one week at camp. In addition to camp being canceled this summer, costs will go up for Summer 2021 for all of us because funding has (understandably) been cut due to the CoronaVirus. So, if you have a rich family member looking to donate to a not-for-profit, Camp Barnabas is a great place to give. Camp Barnabas exists to enrich the lives of people with disabilities in their walk with Christ. Some of the campers have messaged me to say they can't go in 2021 because it's out of the reach of their financial means to go. So, wanna sponsor a camper? Reach out to campbarnabas.org. You could help change the life of a person with a disability for a lifetime. Okay, come on, you knew I'd put a plug in here. It's my favorite place this side of Heaven. *grin*

Finally, my favorite room on the planet is currently closed to the public. This has bummed me out a little, but, we still have the livestream, so it hasn't STOPPED. It's just closed to us during the Stay at Home order. It's okay though, this is short lived. That room is interceding for all of us, I guarantee it. And yes, musicians and singers are six feet apart on stage. (I knew you were wondering) *grin*

Yeah, six feet apart. And we're now wearing masks (for the most part) when we're out in public. Those two things are what I hope we lose once science has figured the virus out. Masks seem minor, but it is different. I am thankful my friend sent me a KC Royals mask. I only wear it when I'm in a store. I don't wear it when we walk. I mean, you can control how close you are to people on a walk. Thankfully.

So here I am 90 minutes later and I need to log off and begin my work day. Thankfully, I won't have to leave my home to do so. *grin* I'm praying we all keep a healthy perspective through all of this, as we will one day be able to hug, hold, and touch other humans one day. And six feet apart will hopefully be a memory and not something we have to do ever again. However, if we have to do it again, this season will show us we can.

I'm praying for you, wherever you are in this journey. Hang on, this won't last forever. I promise.

*grin*
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD...even in a pandemic.

To My Barnabas Family

Dear Barnabas Family,

Today we received news that we won't be going to Camp this Summer. I know we're bummed, but I want to encourage you tonight. I have no doubt that the leaders at Camp wrestled with this decision, and ultimately it was made to HELP US STAY HEALTHY. *grin* It's okay to be bummed though, and it's okay to cry. At the same time, I don't want you to stay sad. This isn't forever, this is for one Summer.

I have thought a lot about camp today. Camp is such a unique place where God's love is physically evident. We will return. I can't give you an exact date, I mean, no one can. But, I do believe that our little piece of Heaven on Earth will return. In the mean time, there is some good news.

We have more technology than ever before. I saw a post earlier this evening of two campers talking to each other via iPads. If you have the ability to reach out to camp friends, I encourage you to do so. I have found a lot of life in online conversations where I can see the person on the other end. It might help you too.

I also encourage you to focus on the good instead of the sad. This season is foreign to everyone, because we've never had this before. Decisions have been made to keep us all safe so that we can return to camp in 2021. Don't focus on what won't happen this summer, but focus on the fact we WILL be back at camp. *grin*

We're family. *grin*

When it's safe, we'll all be back at camp.

And I will be one of the first people to hug your neck. *grin*

Until then, stay safe and positive.

We want you at Camp in 2021.

*grin*
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD!!!!

Random Thoughts for Thursday

So, I could say it was an average day. I got up, worked from home, took Jay on a walk, and relaxed the rest of the evening. All of those are true, but there were a couple memorable moments I want to remember years from now.

The first one was my trip to get milk. I ran out of milk today and my grocery order won't be ready until tomorrow. So, I went out and went to a smaller place for it, thinking it would be fewer people & less exposure to the virus. I was right in that respect, but found it amazing that the handful of us in the store kept a good distance from each other. At one point a guy looked at me and said, "It's a new dance, isn't it?" I laughed and said yes. I look forward to the day when Social Distancing isn't a thing anymore. *grin*

The other thing I want to remember years from now was how special each conversation was today, as I called the peer group to check on everyone. I lost count of how many people said, "Thanks for calling and checking in on me." In one chat, I was laughing so hard at what the other person said that I momentarily forgot why I was calling. So good. We also set a time and day for our next virtual meeting. I love that we have the technology to talk and have live meetings online. That's a gift that we didn't have 20 years ago. *grin*

I don't want to work at home forever, but for now it's perfect.

Have I mentioned how much I love the commute lately? *giggle*

LIFE.
IS.
GOOD.

Working at Home Day #2

It's another day in the Coronavirus Experience, and well, I'm learning a lot. Today's lessons included:

1. The sun is a gift. I didn't know how much I had missed it until I had it today.
2. Walking Jay is always a good thing to do, especially during a quarantine season.
3. The biggest bonuses of working at home is the zero minute commute and saving cash on gasoline.
4. Surprise visits from my Mom are the BEST! She brought me toilet paper, paper towels, and snacks. BEST. MOM. EVER. *grin* I already knew that, but, wanted to share it so I remember it ten years from now. *grin*
5. A friend from church called and we chatted & prayed. She'll never know how much our chat blessed me.
6. I'll never again take it for granted when I don't have to be on guard when touching hand rails and mailboxes. I washed my hands for a LONG time after the walk. *grin*
7. While I don't want to work from home forever, I am enjoying this season at home with Jay. *grin*
8. I'm about to finish my current read. I'm glad I have a stack of books in my TBR pile. It looks like I might be at home for quite a while.
9. Seeing my Mom, even at my middle-age, is still a gift. Social Distance hugs are memorable. *giggle*
10. Social Media has allowed me to see my former co-workers rocking this virtual learning experience. I'm proud of all of them. I'm not surprised, just enjoying watching from the side lines. *grin*

Okay, time to stop. I want to do some chores before I sleep.

WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER, even though we're apart. *grin*

LIFE.
IS.
GOOD!

Work From Home, Day 1

Well, here we are, in a Stay at Home season.

I still kinda feel like we're in a movie, some sci-fi hit. *giggle*

Alas, we're simply trying to help "flatten the curve" and stay away from people.

I am blessed though. I mean, I really like the work at home concept.

On March 9th, I was sitting in a workroom at a nearby high school and someone came in the room and said that it was announced that the first CROVID case was in the KC Metro area. Someone else was in the room and she said her daughter worked at Children's Mercy Hospital and they had been having A LOT of meetings preparing or it. Then everyone left the room. I remember taking a moment and praying then & there. I knew something big was coming, but never would have predicted where we are now. In fact, I remember returning to the office after those classes and there was an article in my email about how to work from home. I knew when I read it that I was going to be working from home, even though we were nowhere near that at that time. He was preparing me for today. *grin* I did what the article said, I got up at the regular time, showered and got ready just like usual. I sat down to work earlier than usual (no commute) and was very productive today. The article said to use a separate space for work. That was smart. My TV didn't turn on until after I was totally done working for the day. *grin* I'm thankful for that article. *grin*

So how did it go? I wouldn't want to be like this for the rest of my life BUT I enjoyed working here at home. The commute is my favorite part. *giggle*

And, tonight I had three people text me to check in on me, and none of them are super close with me. I remember smiling as the people checked in on me. I have a good support network. For real.

Okay, time to crash so I can do it all over again tomorrow.

*grin*
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD!

COVID STAY AT HOME MANDATE EVE

Tonight's post will be short because I am working in the morning FROM HOME. *grin*

Today was weird. The work day was normal in the office, but it felt weird. It felt like the day before a long break. Normally I love those days, but since we're not guaranteed to be done with the Stay at Home Mandate on time, it feels different. When I went to leave work today, at both offices (went by Mo. to take care of something) we had memorable good-byes similar to the last day of school. I didn't cry, but gosh, we all felt it.

I pray that EVERYONE will take it seriously and we can flatten the curve. I pray that staying at home truly works. I pray that I will be able to stay busy enough at home with work related items.

Above all, I pray that we will all get our "normal" back.

For now, I want to head to bed because I want to be at work early in the morning. Yeah, like 8am. *grin* I love that I won't have a rush hour commute or a gasoline expense for a little while.

I'm trying to find the positives. I consider an extra half hour of sleep and no fuel expense to be a positive.

*grin*
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD.

COVID-19 HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY

In the midst of this COVID Chapter in our lives I am trying to see the positives. Today I had a couple.

First off, I will get to work from home starting Tuesday. I am so glad, as the stress of being out in the general population right now wears me out. We had a mandatory stay at home order issued yesterday, which means that starting Tuesday at 12:00am, we are to stay at home. There are exceptions, we can leave for necessities, but the logic is that we will slow the virus down. Looking forward to no rush hour drive, gas expenses, or the stress in this season. *grin*

The even bigger highlight though, happened late this afternoon. A parent of one our Precious Stones students asked me if we could FaceTime because her daughter was struggling today. I told her to wait a moment, as I was still in pjs and wanted to put a hat on. *grin* Turned out FaceTime didn't work on her end, so we simply had a conversation on the phone like in the old days. *giggle* That young lady made me laugh a lot and reminded me how much I love kids. *grin* We hung up and I sent her a short video because she wanted to see me. I sent it to her and her Mom replied and said at the end of the video she said, "I love you" to me. I plan on sending a video at the end of each workday.

That chat made me really think about the challenges these kids are facing. I'm processing & praying through it, and I can't imagine the kid's perspectives. They are not returning to school tomorrow, they are at home for the foreseeable future. I'm now praying differently. These kids will get through it, we all will, by keeping a distance and washing our hands. *grin*

So if you're a parent of a former student (or current Precious Stones student) and they need to talk or FaceTime, please know that I'm willing to do that. I will still be working 8:30-5, but, in the evenings I'm here. Once a young person is in my class (or even attended the school but wasn't in my class) they are my student for life and I'd love to help any young person through this season to the best of my ability. *grin*

I know we can't be close in proximity, but we can help take care of each other from a distance.

So that one phone call was the best part of my day.

Let's try to share the highlights in the midst of these challenges. We can get through this together.

*grin*
LIFE IS GOOD.
Even from home. *grin*

FAITH OVER FEAR-COVID 19

So, here I am again, writing. I'm enjoying the writing again, but admittedly, I do wish it was under other circumstances. Alas, He can use anything to draw me back to writing. *grin*

So this afternoon while I was watching Incredibles 2, I checked my phone and saw that a mandatory Stay at Home order was given for Jackson County, Missouri. I kinda knew it was coming, as the world events were showing that it's the only thing that truly "flattens the curve". Even though I knew it was coming, my stomach dropped. I didn't expect that. Hmmmmmm.....

I think we're all (my little corner of the world at least) doing the best we can during something we haven't experienced before. I remember interviewing my Grandparents about the Great Depression as a teenager, and it's always stayed with me. They worked through the depression, but had to conserve resources too. I find it amazing how we're walking into that too. It's bringing to the surface one HUGE emotion in our world...

FEAR.

That breaks my heart and I understand it all at the same time. I can't remember ever struggling to find paper goods. I think that just adds to the sense of panic now. I've really thought about this as the evening has progressed. People are afraid of the virus, I do believe that. Add to that the idea of being forced indoors for 30 days with your family (or in my case, my dog, Jay) and the idea of running out of essentials, such a toilet paper, leads to an overwhelming feeling of "oh my gosh".

So, what can we control? Having enough toilet paper, of course!

I want to encourage all of us though.

I know that we're in a challenging season.

I also know that we can do this!

It could be your faith that gets you through this, or your family, or a friend, or a pet.

I truly believe that if you're alive now, you were chosen to walk through this season.

HE KNEW WE COULD DO THIS! Even this gal who is one of the pickiest eaters ever. *giggle*

I have read the social media posts, we all miss something....

We all miss sports. (Well, a lot of us, I know sports aren't for everyone)

We all miss being able to go to the movies. (When this is over, I plan to go to tons!)

We all miss being able to go to concerts. (Did you know a lot of artists are doing online shows?)

I already miss all of my Sunday School Peeps.

Several of us hate that they had to cancel Barn-A-Break this weekend to keep us all safe. (And that was the right decision)

I think my sister-in-law said it best though, WE ALL MISS OUR NORMAL.

I believe that this mandatory "Stay At Home" will pull us out of this season faster than if they just let us all keep going as if nothing was going on.

I also believe that on the other side of this, we will all be stronger having walked through this season.

I mean, I already see why Granny B. always had gobs of toilet paper stashed away. *giggle*

I will probably have to remind myself of this chant several times in the next 30 days, but if you were in my class you can hear me chant it:

I BELIEVE THAT WE CAN DO IT!

Yes, I re-wrote the "I believe that we will win" chant to fit my classroom. I also feel like we can chant it through this season.

I am praying for all of us through this. (And miss my church family tons)

So let's be safe, do our best, and encourage each other through this time. We may not be able to be near each other, but gosh we can help each other.

AND LET'S WASH OUR HANDS!!!

Hang in there, WE GOT THIS! Don't let the FEAR overtake your FAITH. FAITH will get us through this. Totally!

I BELIEVE THAT WE CAN DO IT!

And yes, I will be praying for ALL OF US as we navigate through the next 30 days.

*grin*
LIFE IS GOOD. Even when it's hard, it's still good. *grin*

COVID THOUGHTS-Continued

HI!

Another day in the COVID-19 Experience & I did my part and stayed indoors. *grin* Granted, that's partly because of my sinuses, but I am learning that each day brings new information in this Pandemic. These are the moments that show us what really matters in life. I took a portion of my evening and texted people I care about to see how they were doing. It seems everyone is doing okay. We're all navigating this to the best of our abilities.

I'm thankful for Jay. He can feel something is different. This means he's beside me more than usual. I kinda like it. When my mind wanders, he keeps me grounded & reminds me that there's tons of love in the midst of the unusual. *grin*

The amazing thing is all the stories that come out in times like these. Mr. Rogers was right, whenever there's challenges, always look for the helpers. There are always helpers.

I am now limiting my news coverage each day. I find myself getting worked up when I have updates on all day. It really helped today to only watch one national news coverage show and one local one. In that, I was still able to see the helpers:

There are health care workers sacrificing in all sorts of ways for us. ER docs all over who are dying by serving on the front lines.

There are truck drivers making sure items get to the store so that we don't go hungry.

There are people working in the stores to stock shelves & help us in any way they can.

I am so very very thankful for all of those people who are doing their jobs so that we can make it through this time.

If you're one of them, THANK YOU.

For now, I am going to take Jay out, Read, and go to sleep.

My prayers have increased A LOT today. We will make it through this, one day at a time.

Life is good, with the helpers in our world.

Taking Thoughts Captive-COVID-19

HI! Thanks for taking time to read my post. I hope you are encouraged by it. *grin*

The past ten-ish (Maybe 11, but let's not get caught up in exact numbers) days have been the wildest ones of my life. If you're reading this you know that we're in the midst of the challenges of the Coronavirus (Covid 19). I think I was in shock the first few days, thinking this was a movie and that I'd wake up and it would be over. Obviously that wasn't the case. *grin*

Twenty years ago I had someone in my life who taught me a lesson that I have used repeatedly throughout my adult life. I think everyone could benefit from her words, especially now in the midst of so much uncertainty and no end in sight. I am going to throw in some scripture here, and for some of you that isn't your belief system. Bear with me, as it won't matter where you are in your journey (although if you don't know Jesus and have questions, I'm here to answer them. *grin*) but the words can be applied no matter what you believe regarding spirituality.

Twenty years ago I was struggling emotionally, so I went to a therapist who is a Christian. I'll briefly share that season and the words I've kept near to my heart since then.

I'm a people person. I care A LOT about people, and well, I was living alone and in the beginning of my teaching career. I didn't understand how a gal who loves people so much would still be single. I wanted the American Dream...family. So, I went to talk with someone and I can still hear her words.

She told me, in several conversations, that the key to life is to take my thoughts captive and obedient to Christ. (2 Cor 10:5)

In other words, there will always be a challenge in life, but it's how we handle it in our mind that matters most. I'll go a step further and say that for me it is taking my thoughts captive and remembering who I am in the Lord. For you, that may look different and that's okay. *grin*

We are in a season that is overwhelming just sitting here on my couch. (allergies kept me home today) We won't mention the stress that can occur when you have to go out for supplies or whatever.

I went out early this morning for over-the-counter medication. The roads were empty. It felt strange. I went to Leawood, and I've never seen it so deserted before. During my drive I had the Bob Goff Podcast on. (Love Bob's Podcast!) He encouraged his listeners to write, sing, whatever it takes to help us through this season. While I drove I remembered my friend's words, "...take thoughts captive and obedient to Christ."

I've done that A LOT over years.

Change in job? He has something else for me.
Job Searching? He has had something planned for me since before I was formed. There is always a reason for change, because I hate change. But there's something out there for me.
Unexpected loss of life (friend, family, etc)? He has taken them Home.
People talk poorly about me? I'm a child of God, their thoughts don't carry weight with me. He is my audience of one (PD taught me that. *grin*) with unconditional support & love.
Fear of losing food, shelter, etc? He has plans for me. He will take care of me.

As you can see, I've taken what could potentially be a challenge and stopped and prayed to see the perspective in a healthy way.

You might be wondering where I'm headed with this. Well, there is A LOT out of our control right now. It is super easy to get down due to what is happening in our world. So let's flip it and see the positives in a hard situation.

Social Distancing? Well, we still have technology. No one is alone in this. Call, text, email, or whatever it takes to remain in a healthy mindset if you live on your own. Have a family? Take this time to invest in your kids, they'll be gone before you know it.
Feeling sad? Pray, sing, write, whatever calms you and keeps you healthy.
Bored? Watch Netflix, read a book, clean a room, go for a walk (not around people). Jay and I still walk, because no one is outdoors. *grin*
Climbing the walls? Get in the car, turn the music up, and go for a drive. *grin* This one will be something I do a lot in the next couple weeks. The bonus to this over a snow storm is that we can still get out of our four walls.
No toilet paper? Use other items such as kleenex, tissue, etc. (don't clog your toilet though)
No hand sanitizer? There's always soap and water. I have more soap than anything, and will use it because I'm almost out of sanitizer.
(And not washing hands is GROSSSSSSS!!!!)
Your company not letting you work at home? At least you have a job. *grin*

I'm sure you get my point.

I know people who are ALWAYS focusing on the negative. My heart breaks for them. They are truly unhappy.

In reality, I don't think social distancing will last forever. As humans, we're wired to be together.

The next few weeks won't be easy, but we can do this!

This didn't take God by surprise, and we were born for a time such as this.

So when those negative thoughts hit, try to remember to flip it. Your thoughts become your attitude & reality.

As for me, it's time to eat and watch a little Netflix.

Oh, and one more tidbit for free. *giggle* Be sure to thank the people working to stock shelves, healthcare workers sacrificing for us, and tip when you can.

This is one of those seasons we won't forget. I tend to think I'll be blogging more, as it is a release for me.

In the meantime, I'll be praying for each of you. If you have a request, send it my way.

Life is good.
Even when you're at home more than usual. *grin*

Dear God

Dear God,
This week has created some emotions that I didn't expect as I stood at the TobyMac show Sunday Night. Each night's news cast has made me pause. As an adult, I have understood the value of life. I have tried to not take it for granted. 2020 has started out with several friends graduating to Heaven while I don't understand the whole picture. We've talked A LOT this year about that. Now I feel like I'm in a Science Fiction movie with the sports world coming to a stop. I've never seen this, and it has caused me some stress. I want to work from home but the job isn't allowing that. So, I am doing my best. So I have some prayer requests:
Can you help me replace stress with peace, fear with faith, and HOPE where there are thoughts of "when will this end?"

I don't recall ever truly walking in anxiety, but this has brought a lot of emotions to the surface. Please give all of us peace and may we hear YOUR voice above all else.

I love you & know that You are in control.

Love,
Shannon

Chiefsmas Eve

I sit here tonight and I'm smiling. I know you can't see it, and that's okay. Today was a lot of fun.

I started the day at McDonald's with a former student, his Mom, and a former staff member. We got caught up, but honestly, my favorite part of it was playing with my former student's Happy Meal toys. We were loud, obnoxious, and had a ball. *giggle* I'm blessed to be able to still have those people in my life. Truly.

Afterward, I was headed to Wal-Mart and a friend called and asked me if I wanted to go take pics around KC due to the upcoming big game tomorrow. I said yes, and we went tonight. It was crazy, but it turned out to be TONS of fun. We drove around getting various pics, and wound up at Union Station. It was CRAZY busy, but it was a night I'll never forget. We even did a spontaneous streetcar trip. We talked, laughed, walked, took a ton of pics, and just shared an evening. I can see it already, ten years from now I'll remember tonight and smile. My friend doesn't know how much she blesses me. Time with her is time well spent. Always.

So tomorrow night (Sunday, February 2) is the big game. Win or lose, this town has come together in some very special ways. Ah, who am I kidding, I want us to win. *giggle*

So, you might be wondering why I share this blog. It's more for me than you. Tonight I knew I was making memories, and I wanted to make sure I remember them.

LIFE. IS. AWESOME. *GIGGLE*

GO CHIEFS!!!

An Online Celebration of Life

I was supposed to go to Daryl Billing's Celebration of Life today in Joplin, Missouri. A former member of the Youth Group I led 20 years ago was going to fly in and we were going to drive down to Joplin for the service. Then Missouri weather, in typical fashion, happened and the young man didn't fly in and we didn't go. While I was significantly bummed, I knew it was the right decision. Imagine my JOY this morning when I saw that they were streaming the service on FB live. *grin*

When I initially heard Daryl Billings had Cancer, I thought he'd be fully healed. He lasted 5-ish years with Cancer. When he passed away recently, I wrestled with it. Well, I was wrestling beforehand. Then this past week Brian Pink released a song, "Welcome Home, Daryl" that helped me immensely. I think that losing dear friends this side of Heaven is the hardest thing we experience here. That song shifted my perspective and made me glad he's Home.

Even though I haven't had Daryl in my daily life for YEARS, He will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart. People were able to share memories with Daryl today during the service, and I wanted to do a post about him. *grin*

I could literally write pages and pages of experiences in the Lord with Daryl (and Deb) mentoring me. Instead, I'll post highlights. That's what others did today during the celebration of life.

Daryl baptized me while I served alongside him and Deb at New Song Church in Joplin. We had an evening baptism service and several of us were baptized. It was priceless.

For a season we participated in Saturday night services at Joplin Church Alive (J.C.A.) and then we had services on Sunday morning at New Song Church. Defining moments in my walk with Him were made in that season. Daryl & Deb encouraged me when I was unsure, and let me know they believed in me. I was new to the Spirit Filled culture, and they taught me a lot in that season.

Daryl said a lot of things that have stayed with me all these years. One of my favorites was the fact that Daryl would always point me to God. When discussing various things, he would say, "What's God telling you?" He always pointed me to God, not to him or Deb. I try to do that when I'm mentoring young people now. That's helped shape who I am today. I think that's what good mentors do. They encourage & guide, but ultimately prepare you for success without them. Daryl did that very well with me.

I find it amazing what we remember throughout life. I remember a specific morning at New Song when Deb was encouraging a few of us, and she walked over to Daryl, put her hand on his chest, and told us not to settle in who we had for a spouse. She told us Daryl was worth the wait that she had between her first marriage & Daryl. That's been deep in my heart all these years.

Daryl was the person who encouraged me to play bongos at Crossroads House of Prayer. I remember the night he invited me up and how much I loved it. (Looking back, I was not good at it that night, but Daryl encouraged me in it anyway.) I've had some deep encounters after New Song on the Bongos at various events. If Daryl hadn't opened that door, I would have missed out on some amazing times on worship teams or at BYKOTA's Women's Retreats. I'm so thankful for that first night. *grin*

It's been MANY years (16 I think) since I served with Daryl & Deb at New Song. I have enjoyed watching Daryl & Deb do life together via facebook. I feel like we've been connected even though I've been in KC ten years now. I'm so very thankful for Social Media in this way because I enjoyed watching Daryl and Deb take adventures together. They inspire me.

I will miss him, although not in the way you might think. Over the years, when Bethel Music would come to KC or at the Onething Conference, I'd see him at the events. We would always hug (side hug, he was always a gentleman) and chat briefly. I remember the first time I saw him after I had moved up here, and we were both very excited to see each other and catch up. Whenever Bethel came, I would look for him. We both share a heart for worship music, so it was fun to see him at various events. I'll miss him when those events happen now and I won't see him. That's okay though, I'll think of him and smile. I think he'll be there in spirit. *grin*

Watching his Celebration of Life online today was neat. Not only did a get to see people from that season at New Song speak on Daryl's life, but I got to chat throughout the service via the chat feature on the web. In live time I was able to converse with some of those young people that were at New Song. I also met some new people too. I enjoyed hearing people share what an impact Daryl made on the lives of God's kids. There were A LOT of people that were blessed by Daryl. I wasn't surprised by that, but I was inspired.

Daryl was a man that knew how to unconditionally support people where they were at, but also challenge them to be more than they thought they could be. Daryl knew God and was able to impart the love of the Father into his kids.

As I watched the service, I was inspired to be used by God like Daryl was this side of Heaven.

Daryl, you will be missed this side of Heaven. May we all love people as well as you did while you were here. Love, T.S.O.

*grin*
(My nickname with Daryl was T.S.O., The Short One. It made me smile)

My Heart is Full-Christmas 2019

I sit here tonight and my heart is full. I remember being a kid and the joy that Christmas brought in our home. The older I get, the more I realize how wonderful my parents are to my family. They are kinda amazing. *grin*

Over the years, we've adopted traditions without even realizing it. Or perhaps I just took it all for granted until today. Either way, it's incredible.

Love comes in different forms. Add them all up, and my heart is full.

It can be in a hug.
It can be in a conversation.
It can be in giving a gift.
It can be petting a dog.
It can be in a text.
It can be giving someone the perfect item that was on their wish list.
Or it can be something totally new that the person never knew they wanted.

Yesterday I drove to Springfield, had my favorite pizza on the planet, and a conversation that I didn't know I needed with a dear friend. One conversation can change a person. For me, it's been a lot to ponder, pray, and appreciate. Friendship comes in so many forms, and I'm blessed in my friendship with my friend in Springfield. I'm closer to God than I was on Monday. That is a gift. Priceless.

Okay, so back to the whole Christmas Day sap. *giggle*

Family. Priceless.

Gifts. Priceless.

Laughter.

Food.

My Heart is full.

*grin*
LIFE.
IS.
GOOD. *giggle*

To PD From TSO

Dear PD,

I know you're known as Papa Daryl to a lot of people, and that is so fitting for you. You will always be PD (Pastor Daryl) to me. I realize that even as I type this, God may call you Home. Part of my heart breaks, as I've been contending for healing in your body. At the same time, I've come to realize that where you're headed is where you're called to be. I'm excited for you, and sad for us. I hate C, but gosh you've taught so many of us in this season. I wanted to take a moment and let you know how much you taught me in my season at New Song.

I didn't know that day at Cecil Floyd Elementary when you came to talk to our mutual friend, Pam, would change my life in such a good way. You were so kind and simply gave me your card and invited me to church. I've thanked God several times over the years for that meeting.

Over time I enjoyed getting to know you, Deb, and the New Song family. I am so very thankful for the foundation you put in my heart in the things of the Lord. I had my first prophetic word there, which solidified so many things that I still hold dear to me today.

Everyone that asks me about my history of God, I tell about you & Deb. You did so many things for the young gal that I was in that season as I navigated singleness, living alone, and my first flood in my apartment. *grin* You were the one that taught me how to turn off my water, and we worked together to clean up the mess. THANK YOU. I smile when I think about that night, as I realize how young I was in that apartment, and how good you and Deb were to me. I look back on that season with a smile and love the family you became to me during that season.

I love how you walked me through the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I'll ALWAYS be grateful for that. Thank you. It shifted my entire walk with Him. When I share my testimony, you are part of it. *grin*

I admired how you and Deb were so transparent with the New Song family. I truly felt like we were our own little family, and unconditional love was prevalent throughout that season. I'll never forget Deb teaching me not to settle for a spouse and what waiting meant for her as He made a way for you two to be together. I've held that deep in my heart all these years. *grin*

You and Deb were such good role models for me as a new believer, and I smile now as I reflect upon that. You (PD) never crossed any boundaries with me, and always had a father's heart toward me. Thank you. I'm so very thankful for the two of you.

When I first heard that you had C, I prayed and felt you'd beat it. Truly. When I read your post earlier this week, my heart sank. That Thanksgiving post is one that has impacted me & you haven't been far from my mind since.

Your positivity during the past few months on social media has inspired me. You know where you're headed and are at peace. For that, I am thankful. I want you out of pain and in paradise, as much as that breaks my heart for us. I'm praying for your family during this season. The party that's coming in Heaven when you arrive is going to be an amazing one.

You're leaving behind a lot of people who are closer to God today because of the way He used you in our lives. Thanks for your obedience. You won't be forgotten. You set an amazing example of the Father for all of us. Thanks.

Ohhhhh, what did Tigger find in the toilet? Pooh. *giggle*

Well, you enjoy jokes, as you've posted them a lot on FB. I thought I'd give you one more. *giggle*

Thanks for everything. You'll never know how much I adore & love you and Deb this side of Heaven.

With Love,
In Christ,
TSO
(PD's nickname for me as TSO-The Short One)